sokies i am sitting here at college and i do not feel very well, i spent most of the weekend doing physics and going over gravity and what not and guess what ... not one damned question on gravity ... SUCK ... and i spent so much time on it too .. sleeping all day saturday doesnt help either ... and in all of it i could nto find one of my problem sets for diff eq so i can not hand that in today .. SUCK ... and since i spent so much time on physics, time that became worthless, i didnt spend any time on diff eq ... another .. SUCK ... dargs .. and i am getting all pimply from all of this worring that i am doing .. why am i worring ??? i dont worry .. Zehaeva never worries about anything ... Zehaeva could have cancer and be dying and he wouldnt worry so why the fuck is he worring now ??? huh ??? i ask you all why is he ??? dargs .. damn women ... damn them all ... better yet damn myself ... damn me for falling from the heavens ... i wished only to soar above the clouds like icarus ... not run around down here in the mud .... ARGS ... i can not wait till after finals .. i am thinking about just bombing them all on purpose ... just so that i have to go and get a job and do something fucking else in life ... AHHHHHHHH .... i do not feel good ... i just need someone to hold me and tell me it`s going to be alright ... i dont care who you are ... just ... hold me ...
~Zehaeva
`show me show me show me how you do that trick
the one that makes me scream she said
the one that makes me love she said
and threw her arms around my head
Show me how you do it
And I promise you I promise that
I`ll run away with you
I`ll run away with you`
the cure - just like heaven