Why is it that when I wake up I define it by the absence of you? My dreams feature you writ large like I'm watching a movie at a drive in. Sometimes I have to wonder, will there be a day when this isn't true? What will that be like? How will I feel? Not that I really want that. I guess if I wanted that I would have done it long before now. I still dream of your smile. I don't want that to change. I only wish I could see it in a less ephemeral way.