ack my mind has grown used to my standard fantasies. its bored with what i think of and imagine. i have to come up with newer things to do inside my imagination, newer things to excite me. a bit horrible isnt it? from what you prolly have read of my stories you probaly wonder what new stuff i would have to think of to get my self going. all i know is that normalicy isnt doing it for me. and only the utterly preverse is getting to me now. ergs. all i want is the touch of a woman. the feeling of her next to me breathing while we lay down to sleep. just someone to share myself with. at this point i`m beging to consider even just a short term relationship, rather than looking for what will become the rest of my life. i`ve got alot of life to go through and so do girls my age. no one is looking for the one in their twenties. ::sighs:: so yeah, i sit here all day long, playing games and eating choclate and programming to make some money. ah such a boring exsitance, but i am helping people. lots of them. and i am content with myself. i suppose that is a good thing. though i have a drive to be better in some areas. and so much that i want to do. i will do it. i will push forward. i will never stop, i will accelerate into the future.
~Zehaeva
Deftones - Pony - 09 - Passenger