strange .. i woke up this morning at 7 am thinking i had to be in class by 8 and so i get up get dressed and get my stuff and walk to school ... now this in and of itself is not unuasual .. but when i got to school thinking why is there no one in class?? i go to thinking .. so i looked at the neat little time table on the door of my class room and it says the first class of the day, mine, was at nine ... it being only 8 am only could understand why no one was here, except for a crackhead like me, so i went and ate breakfast and wen tto class and became horrible tired because instead of studing like i planned yesterday i had to go and rent a uhaul for over 160 bucks and go load up the van (hour and a half ).. drive to candagua ..( 2 hours ) unload van ( hour ) drive to rochester ( 45 minutes ) load van ( hour and half ) drive to candagua (45 minutes ) unload van ( 30 minutes ) drive to utica ( 2 hours ) then unload van ( 45 minutes ) then not only do i ave to drive back to the uhaul place i have to drive back cause i forgot to drop the slip in the freaking box cause god forbid if i did they would tack on and extra 50 bucks to my bill ... i will say i am never renting a damned uhaul anything again .. they wanted to put a 1,000 lean on my credit card just for insurance purporses ?? wtf??? are you on crack .. oh yeah the `estamate` for going out to canadagua and back was only 50 bucks .. at 39 cents per mile .. ??? umm do theses people even know where canadagua is ??? you know the stupidity of others annoys me .. what annoys me even more it that i told my sister to do all of this on my own when i know for a fact had i been nice and done so it would have only cost 80 bucks but oh well thats life .. and i get to stay here for the next 2 hours then go to a class where i going to say i wanna write about ____ and my teacher will say okay and then i will go home and SLEEP, cause god forbid that i get any ... i porbably wont though cause i ahve to clean the apartment and i should do some more home work and then theres calculus i have to take care of then i should get ready for chem lab .. oh yeah i ahve to come back after 5 and go to chem and chem lab .. so for 5 hours i get to sit there and go huh ??? cause i ahve no idea what the hell is going on and if i even pass the damned thing it will be because its all lab and a multiple choice tests .... DARGS .. i hate all of this .. and most of all i hate that no one reads this ... i hate that i keep on writing in it even though no one reads it .. dargs ... makes you feel kinda worthless .. and would any of my friends even go somewhat out of their way to drop by and say hi ??? i doubt it .. but oh well what does it matter anyways ??? .. hrmm the only thought that keeps me going in all of this is one of this cute woman that i feel really likes me and that i really like back ... and thus far between being told that i _have_ to do something when i have more pressing matters .. (i hate being told you _have_ to do this ) and school and driving to bum fuct egypt, and getting no sleep and having no time to do normal things the only thing thats keeping me sane and stoping me from saying screw all you people is this one girl ... weird huh ?? but then again she probably could say i`m a fucking ass hole and that she never wants to see me again and i would still go on .. but this way atleast i have something to look forward to and not just all of life sucks ... just a little bit right now ... jonai
~Zehaeva