i think that most people who get a free account really dont use it .. its sad when people who pay for an account dont use it either .. or atleast post to it ... its kinda depressing in that way ... i find this to be an easy and efficient way to keep up with another persons life .. and i think i got to know a few people better through here as well ... dunno its kinda weird i think .. all of this is weird ... i`m tired and thirsty .. i havent been on a normal sleep schedual for the past few days .. i`ve been sleeping an inordinate amount of time .. like going to be at like 4 in the afternoon and waking up at midnight and then staying up till 4 the next one .. well not quite like that but thats what i did last night ... its strange ... i couldnt convince anyone to go to denny`s with me either .. i just wanted to be with someone and talk you know or even just to be sitting there with someone who will willingly acknowledge my presence if i wanted to say something .. dargs .. i need more human contact .. i have ben thinking bout chatting with people that i ahve met through here but i am not sure as to whether or not it would be welcome .. strange that i think of stuff like that i guess i give my self the impression of just doing things for the hell of it .. because i think it will all be interesting ... i dunno ... i still feel like i am 15 sometimes ... i wonder if people who are older still feel this way too ... like at 40 or something you know ??? dargs i burned off a cd for leo, he`s a guy i met here at college .. he`s pretty kewl ... i wouldnt mind having him as a friend .. he is awesome .. yeah .. i am weird ... anyways ... i have had song from rent running through my head like all of the time recently .. like la vie bohem and one song glory and seasons of love and what not i canna getta them outta my head and its freaking me out .. but i do this with les miserables too so .. ohh i have to watch finding forester agian .. i saw it earlier this morning for liek 5 minutes and i dont quite remember what happened .. ohh and i saw 13 ghosts last weekend .. it was kewls .. too short in my opinion but then again i doubt that people would be able to stand the movies that i would make and love .. they would be too long too sit through ... but then again the guys at sundance would probably love me ... hehe anyways i`m going to look for leo so i can give him this cd of pimsleurs learning japanese so that he can talk with these girls that he so adores ... hehee i adore them too so .. yeah .. hey so what i am a perv ... at least i admit it ... ::Sighs:: i dunno .. called stony brook a few times to get an answering machine just so they can send me a application again .. dargs .. i hate this ... why cant i just study here or at home and have them hand me my phd ?? i`m acctually getting nervious about all this i`m going to have to move in all .. the bad part bout living in one place for most of eterinty, for me atleast, is that moving someplace else is weird .. just the thought of it ... DARGS .. yeah gotta go ..
~Zehaeva
its all happening ...