oh and i had such a nice post planned
look what happened all those months ago was a mistake. thats just the way life is. you were fucking plastered, i was fucking plastered. you wouldt have done any of that if you were sober, i would have never had told you how i felt about you. boo fucking hoo .your not going to talk to me because i didnt tell you about it. how would you have liked me to? "uh hey you know last night you got really frisky" ? wtf ? you prolly would have thought that i spent the night fondling your unconscious body, hell your just might think this now, but let me tell you, that did not happen. both of us were willing participants in that. whether or not we would have done the same sober. look everyone does some kind of fucked up shit every once in a while while they are 3 sheets to the wind. and what did you expect me to do?? i had just confessed my heart and soul to you not hours before and here you were wanting me, well what the fuck should i have done? sat up and said "i`m sorry but i cant do _anything_ with you because well your single and available and so am i and i`ve been crushing for you for the past fucking 7 months and since you`ve descided now to throw yourself at me i jsut cant do anything with you" yeah lets find one human being on this god damned planet that would have done differently from me. find me just one, i`ll casterate myself. Ghandi would have banged you!! look woman, i am not any prouder than you are because of this. i do not take anykind of gratification from the thought that these events took place. hell if i could i`d take them all back, starting with me telling you how i felt about you.
look the above does nothing more than ven a little steam for me. and its all because i didnt hear about this from you, its because you wont be adult about it and go hey look can we talk. or even a look i`m uncomforatble so i want to be alone for a little bit. no you just stop fucking talking with me. well isnt that mature.
that hurts
and what i think hurts more is that you laid there and listened to me and fell asleep while i held you and you were thinking about all that. if it upsets you that much then why the fuck didnt you turn around and slap me or something ??
~Zehaeva
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