sokies so here i sit in boredom .. i have been playing with my program and adding to it .. puting in neat features .. etc .. and what else .. oh yeah i should put this into paragraph format
so here i go again, my tea is cooling right now so i can sip it with out burning my tongue. i dont know what to talk about. i really have nothign to go on about, my tea pot it old. bu ti adore it. its a vista by copoc and i can only find a white one for sale on the net. which is horrible depressing. the one i have now is black but the top of it is all messed up and well its starting to rust inside. i cleaned the rust out, well i have to, the thought of ingesting rust is horrible. anyways. i want a new one. but i cant find a black one.
look i have this thing with having a monochromatic lifestyle. yes about 70% of my wordrobe is black. about 60% of everything i want and own is black. if i can help it everything would be black, silver or red. which is kinda odd cause those are my high school`s color`s, well they werent always. my high schools original colors were black and silver, they added red i think in my junior or senior year, i dont recall. i wasnt there much for either.
i still have this massive bag of reese`s pieces staring at me. well i`m staring at it. its tempting. really tempting. i dont know why i dont quite want to eat them yet. i know i desire them. but i am waiting. i dont quite know for what though. i do know that if i open it i will consume the whole bag. all 489 grams of it(a pound and a quarter for those of you on the english system, hey wait i`m on the english system,!!!) which isnt that bad of a thing i guess. cause god knows i could use it. but i think more heathly food should be higher on my list of foods to consume.
so yeah i found this really neat control in microsofts date controls, its called DPicker, its basically a drop down combo box that drops down a calendar, neat huh?, i thought it was pretty kewls.which take me full circle to my program cause i was thinking that i can use that control to great effect.
which brings me to the communities i am signed up with. alot of them have quite a bit of traffic, specifically the and , but i dotn like reading a hundred posts of these people introing them selves on the anime community( i keep it for the interesting discutions that pop up every few days) and the math comunity is a bit hard to understand at times, alot of the guys there are into topography and other such stuff, at masters and phd levels, scary huh ??, other communities that i woudl expect to have high levels of traffic dont, like visual basic, there are lots that can be transcribed there, but no on posts anything, there are a few others but yeah stuff like that.
so yeah nothing else in my life. not that i can think of. my mind has been turning to ex`s in my fantasies recently, maybe i am just longing for something familuar or what. especilally liisa, i guess no matter what i shall be haunted by her untill i either, find her again and marry her, die, or fall in love like that again. tall order? no i dbout it. i just need one woman to fall in love with, and then i shall forget about her. which seems weird right? but its like this, i spent 4 years with the girl, the other person that comes close is junko and i only spent like 3 months of time with her physically( our long distance relationship lasted about a year) but that whole time i was with junko i could think of nothing else but junko. it wasnt untill after junko and i were through that i had a thought of liisa, so yeah,i guess because i cared for liisa the longest and the most overal that my heart defaults to her. shes my ichiban. but thats over anyways, shes gone and doesnt love me any more. ::sighs:: so what? i look for someone else. i look for some one that i can share my life with, someone that i will think is cute and slowly begin to love. and then before i know it i will do nothing but think of this girl and falling so hard and fast i wont even think of anyone else. she has to be a woman full of passion and life though, which is hard to find, silly sweet and serious all at once. i need a woman who is everything. who can keep up with me and rule besides me.
that is perhaps the tallest order of them all. too bad i have already let so many of them slip through my fingers already.
and as i sit here and type this i am singing to a song on the labyrinth soundtrack dance magic ... yeah i am cracked out ..
~Zehaeva
David Bowie - Magic Dance